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Oh for the love of Ruth!
Jun. 9th, 2010 10:55 amSorry guys, I was going to write a post on the link between fandom and creativity but Spooks happened. To be precise season five, episode five happened. The dreaded episode. The one that made my heart a blithering mess. The reason why I am now crying as I type this and listen to sad love songs.
Fuck you Spooks. Really, fuccccck you.
My flist will remember me posting this on the topic of the pain I experienced at Zoe leaving and how I put all of my love into Ruth/Harry instead.
So then I jumped onto the Ruth bandwagon... well I was already on the Ruth bandwagon but in a less of a "oh shit if Ruth leaves my heart will bleed" kind of stage that I had gotten to with Zoe. But then you know Ruth is just so cool and so like me if I were a Spook and her and Harry are so damn cute that before I knew it... yep... now if Ruth leaves my poor heart will break and my Mum will be walking around moaning 'Ruth, Zoe" at random intervals.
This is Spooks. It will happen. My heart will be broken again. I know this because somewhere along the line Nicola Walker who plays Ruth had a kid and left for a couple of seasons. There's only 8 seasons. I'm onto the 5th one. I live in fear.
Yeah well the above paragraph happened. It happened in the way that I dreaded. It happened in a similar way to Zoe, just to make sure that my sorrow would be just as great and take me another 2 seasons to get over.
It was some of the most excruciating television I've watched in my life and damn it they'd finally sorted out their relationship and then Ruth gets framed. Not only does she get framed, but she can't defend herself unless she lets Harry go down too. Wow. I hate you scriptwriters, I really, really do.
I'm not sure which was the most emotional part. The part where Ruth sits with Zaf and asks him to smile if he thinks he sees her and keep walking, the part where Jo walks in on Ruth andd Harry when they're looking into each others eyes, the part where Zaf asks Ruth if she knows that she's throwing her life away and does she even know why she's doing it, and Ruth says yes and nothing else and we all know its because of Harry, the part where Harry says he doesn't know what he's going to do without Ruth, the part where they kiss, the part where they say goodbye, or the final scene where Harry is staring after Ruth on the boat looking devestated and Ruth stares back and oh my God I'm crying again...
I missed alot of dialogue at the end of the episode because by that stage my glasses had misted up and I was crying uncontrollably. Even my Mum shed a tear. That never happens, except at the end of Big Fish when Burton makes that beautiful death analogy. Usually my Mum laughs at me because I'm very fussy about what films I watch and shows I admit to liking to, but when I like a show I get very emotional about it and cry alot.
I cried so much it wasn't funny. I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I still get depresed thinking about it.
My Mum true to form roamed around the house moaning "Zoeeee, Ruthhhh." She also made me feel even worse by pointing out that like Zoe, Ruth has to leave everything behind including her pets, money etc, except unlike Zoe, she doesn't even get the love of her life :( Well, thanks for that Mum, that just made me cry more.
I don't know how the hell I can keep watching series five without Ruth. She was the backbone of the show damn it!
So, for the love of Ruth, I post some sad YT videos to make me and everyone else more depressed.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTkTs8mg_tQ&feature=related
God that one is tragic. I can never listen to Apologise on my ipod without thinking about Ruth and Harry :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjcCcia6taU&feature=related
This song is too much too!
Farewell Ruth Evershed. Words cannot express how much I loved you!
PS: Anyone know where they can point me in the direction of some decent Harry/Ruth fan mixes? Or how I send Nicola Walker fan mail for that matter?
Fuck you Spooks. Really, fuccccck you.
My flist will remember me posting this on the topic of the pain I experienced at Zoe leaving and how I put all of my love into Ruth/Harry instead.
So then I jumped onto the Ruth bandwagon... well I was already on the Ruth bandwagon but in a less of a "oh shit if Ruth leaves my heart will bleed" kind of stage that I had gotten to with Zoe. But then you know Ruth is just so cool and so like me if I were a Spook and her and Harry are so damn cute that before I knew it... yep... now if Ruth leaves my poor heart will break and my Mum will be walking around moaning 'Ruth, Zoe" at random intervals.
This is Spooks. It will happen. My heart will be broken again. I know this because somewhere along the line Nicola Walker who plays Ruth had a kid and left for a couple of seasons. There's only 8 seasons. I'm onto the 5th one. I live in fear.
Yeah well the above paragraph happened. It happened in the way that I dreaded. It happened in a similar way to Zoe, just to make sure that my sorrow would be just as great and take me another 2 seasons to get over.
It was some of the most excruciating television I've watched in my life and damn it they'd finally sorted out their relationship and then Ruth gets framed. Not only does she get framed, but she can't defend herself unless she lets Harry go down too. Wow. I hate you scriptwriters, I really, really do.
I'm not sure which was the most emotional part. The part where Ruth sits with Zaf and asks him to smile if he thinks he sees her and keep walking, the part where Jo walks in on Ruth andd Harry when they're looking into each others eyes, the part where Zaf asks Ruth if she knows that she's throwing her life away and does she even know why she's doing it, and Ruth says yes and nothing else and we all know its because of Harry, the part where Harry says he doesn't know what he's going to do without Ruth, the part where they kiss, the part where they say goodbye, or the final scene where Harry is staring after Ruth on the boat looking devestated and Ruth stares back and oh my God I'm crying again...
I missed alot of dialogue at the end of the episode because by that stage my glasses had misted up and I was crying uncontrollably. Even my Mum shed a tear. That never happens, except at the end of Big Fish when Burton makes that beautiful death analogy. Usually my Mum laughs at me because I'm very fussy about what films I watch and shows I admit to liking to, but when I like a show I get very emotional about it and cry alot.
I cried so much it wasn't funny. I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I still get depresed thinking about it.
My Mum true to form roamed around the house moaning "Zoeeee, Ruthhhh." She also made me feel even worse by pointing out that like Zoe, Ruth has to leave everything behind including her pets, money etc, except unlike Zoe, she doesn't even get the love of her life :( Well, thanks for that Mum, that just made me cry more.
I don't know how the hell I can keep watching series five without Ruth. She was the backbone of the show damn it!
So, for the love of Ruth, I post some sad YT videos to make me and everyone else more depressed.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTkTs8mg_tQ&feature=related
God that one is tragic. I can never listen to Apologise on my ipod without thinking about Ruth and Harry :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjcCcia6taU&feature=related
This song is too much too!
Farewell Ruth Evershed. Words cannot express how much I loved you!
PS: Anyone know where they can point me in the direction of some decent Harry/Ruth fan mixes? Or how I send Nicola Walker fan mail for that matter?